wake up alone

its okay in the day i m staying busy

tied up enough so i don't have to wonder where is he 

got so sick of cryin' so just lately 

when i catch myself i do a 180

i stay up clean the house at least i m not drinking

run around just so i don't have to think about thinking

that silent sense of content that everyone gets

just disappears soon as the sun sets 

he's fierce in my dreams seizing my guts

he floods me with dread 

soaked in soul he swims in my eyes by the bed 

pour myself over him moon spilling in 

and i wake up alone 

as far as my heart i'd rather be restless
the second i stop the sleep catches up and i'm breathless
this ache in my chest 'cause my day is done now
the dark covers me and i cannot run now 

my blood running cold i stand before him 
it's all i can do to assure him 
when he comes to me i drip for him tonight 
drowning me we bathe under blue light